Reflections on the dawn

I wrote this about 3 weeks ago. Hope you like it.

The break of dawn, I find it interesting. You start to see the glimmer of the sun's rays start to come out and breech the darkness. The Clouds are still dark and the stars can still be seen but for how long? It's also pretty nice to drive early in the morning. No one is on the road, no hectic traffic or annoying drivers. You start to feel at peace with yourself because it's you, your car, and the road. The road will always be there.

You wake up early, turn on the lights, and your eyes begin to hurt. And you can smell the fresh air coming in through your window to start the new day soon. You jump out of bed, get dressed, and then hit the road. The place you travel through every day feels so different all of a sudden, like new life was given to it. New life was given to yourself that morning. We die with the night then we are given new life with the dawn. Maybe I should spend more mornings like this.

The rattle of the keys, the smell of the air, and the rays finally breaking through the sky. I like the dawn. It reminds me of how every day I am given a second chance to live. And I will always be grateful for that. Maybe I should come and visit the dawn more often.

Peace 'n' Love
Mike

Well you see. . . .

I've been failing so far with my poem-a-day thing. i just like stopped. its bad. and i stopped reading a little bit every day. i feel bad. but alas, i shall start it up again! So here is a poem i wrote today so i can start up again.

Everything is going to change
I can feel it deep down
down in my soul
My heart weakens
due to this thought
My eyes will see
so many different things
Things i called to see
But maybe its not what I want
Like when they meet the Doctor
They know that things won't be the same
and they can't go back
Life is fragile
But all I say to myself is
Get ready for this
Get ready for this

Peace 'n' Love
Mike

Something new

So i decided to do something new and somewhat creative for once. Well i know at one point Jon Foreman was writing a song a day just to do it (sorta). So im not doing that. Im writing a poem a day until a certain time, then i think im going to start doing the song a day. Just to get the creative juices pumping before i go to college, and i have been lacking on the songs too.

So heres day 2 of this. I label them/name them by the day i wrote them. So this one is called "6/16/10"

"Remember that death is not the end
But only a transition" *
Oh how this is true in our lives
But how worried would I be if I knew
That this terrible thing had happened
to you oh I would tear
so much I wouldnt know what to
think about all the things
we conversed and listened to each other
about even though the seperation between us
grows at times I will still be afraid
to lose a great friend and someone to
care for you are a bright star
a star in the sky of a better place
in a place where people sing and rejoice


* Lyrics from "Fatal Tragedy" by Dream Theater

Peace 'n' love
Mike

The City

Here is a poem i wrote while looking out at New York City, New Jersey, The Statue of Liberty, and Ellis Island. It is called "the City"

Oh beautiful city
How I love thee
But, in time I will not know
If your windy brother will take over my love
For I will be closer to him
Rather than you, one day
Your lights are enticing
As much as his trains
And different style of life

For both of you still come from the same woman
That Lady Liberty I always see in the distance
To remind me of my home
(or lack there of but i dont know)
That i am proud
To be where i am
To understand so much
And to know so little about you
For my banner will always be the one
The one for which the colors are branded on me
For beauty will always be yours

Peace 'n' love
Mike

Dear __________:

I got this idea from lee. it is anonymous to who they are to. so yea i will start

Dear 1: What the hell happened to you? We used to be good friends, we used to talk to alot of other people then you became involved with the wrong people and where are you now? I dont even wanna think about what the hell happened? Like no offense your life seems so screwed up, and i cant do anyhting about it because you wont talk to any of us

Dear 2: You seem to just want to be distant friends who occasionally talk. im still trying to be nice, but i realized its pointless so good luck in college and your life. I will still try to stay in contact though

Dear 3: I'm sorry im messed up. I cant get these feelings straight. I know youre probably confused, or just dont want these feelings, but at times i cant control them. At times ill be like "i want to be with you forever" then there are times where i'm like "youre just my friend" and then times when i sin and say "you are way too good for me why would someone as great as you be with someone as low as me?" its just confusing. i wish i was one, had one face, and didnt go back and forth. maybe its because im not with you at all, i dont get to see you thats why this is happening. I'm just confused. i wish i could be true and honest to you but my emotions have different faces. i dont get to talk to you any more. i know you have a busy life, and are trying to relax for the summer so thats why we talk less than we talked during school. i dont know, like my song i showed you "im just a broken man" i know you have a feeling that i like you, but im confused on your tone of that statement you told her (yea she told me what you wrote because i am in fact nosy, you arent) i did write a couple of songs for you. i did take elements of our relationship and put them in songs, but made them fables. i do care for you deep down inside, i dont know why, but i think God has a special place in my heart for you to be there. Just at times, i miss His voice and direction. "and i will say im true to you, but im a cheat and i dont understand" have you heard the saying "a girls heart has to be so lost in God that a guy must go to God first to get her heart" i feel like i have to do that. Not only for you, but for stability and peace in my life. I'm here now because of God, and i still need to search for Him more. Maybe if i search and accept Him more, he will lead me to consistent feelings in the woman He has planned for me as my wife. I feel like im rambling on right now. But you want to know what i said to her about you and stuff. Well what she said was a beginning. Here is the now. Here is everything that you want to know. If you have questions just ask me. i will honest. life is too short to hide feelings and beat around the bush. but im not gonna lie im confused about my feelings (sorry for redundancy) But i know you want to know, but you wont read this. But here you are. There you go. "And now my heart is an open book for all to see" But for you, i think its quite ok.

Peace 'n' Love
Mike