You give me hope

"You give me hope in spite of everything. You show me love even with so much pain. so i will take this life and live like i was given another try"

I am listening to that song over and over. at first i really didnt like it. after a couple of listens, it is awesome. Its not like "rock-your-face-off" awesome, more like God awesome. Have you ever heard of anyone calling God awesome? well its one of those awesomes.

I love Between the Trees (the band that made that song ^ ^) and Ryan Kirkland (the singer and guitarist of BTT). They just seem like amazing people who are good hearted. They want to help people, and do help people with their music. I wish i could do that. i wish i was like my heroes. Jon Foreman, Switchfoot, Stephen Christian, Anberlin, Matt MacDonald, The Classic Crime, Bryce Avary/The Rocket Summer, i know there are alot more that i am forgetting right now. they write good songs, and they have good music to it. and me just a 17 (almost 18) year old kid who has an acoustic, electric guitar, bass, and piano who makes crappy songs that dont mean anything to anyone and most of them havent heard outside the four walls i play them in. I show people my lyrics, but they are just lyrics. they arent lyrics with music with my bad voice. I really want to know peoples reactions to my songs when i play the songs for them. does it really make them think? does it connect with their life? does it make sense at all?

I wish i was like my heroes. They mean so much to me. I want to be that person for some people. I want to be that good hearted person that some teen looks up to. i want to be an inspiration.

But maybe God has bigger plans for me. Maybe He wants me to do something different and still help people and be an inspiration. But i still have hope to be a musician.

"You give me hope in spite of everything. You show me love even with so much pain. So i will take this life and live like i was given another try, given another try"

arent we given another try all the time?

Where is my home?

Heres a poem i wrote today. It was influenced a bit by "this is home" by switchfoot. but it is mainly influenced by the fact that i'm going to college, and i really dont know where my true home is.

where is my home?
is it in that wickerbasket
where people know whats there?
or is it in the small concrete block
where this name can be heard?

is it in that far off land
one i prise so much
one that is new and wiling
in that place people call Indiana
where i know almost nobody

or is it in this place?
the chair i am sitting in
that has worn down from over-use
in a place i call New Jersey
where i know almost everyone

or is it in a place i dont know?
on the beating pulse of someone
a girl in my dreams
or the boys and girls i dont completely know yet
the ones i will soon enough know

where is my home?
in the end i will realize
this is home
i belong in this very place
i have found my home



Peace 'n' Love
God Bless

Who needs air?

"I have come to realization that life is more than what i have accomplished
And life is more than the realization that we have accomplished nothing at all
true success is so selfless so drown in the lyrics of your life and give up the air that you breathe
you dont need anything"


i just love that. Thank you Matt MacDonald for those lyrics.
Peace 'n' Love

New things . . . .again

So i'm blogging again. and im going to say very little because i actually have to go to work soon. well i visited Illinois and Indiana this past weekend. it was fun, even with the aggravtion between my mother and I. I met up with Rachel which was awesome. i visited purdue university and decided im going to go there for college. i accepted my offer of admissions two days ago. i wrote a song while in chicago which im hoping to memorize. i bought a hardshell guitar case for my acoustic for college. i got my paycheck, and hopefully get it by friday (bc im in dire need of gas for my car, im on empty)umm yea that seems about it. so yea have a cool day/night, whichever you prefer!

Peace 'n' Love