I wanna live. . . .

Jon Foreman of Switchfoot says in the song "Awakening", "I wanna live like i know what i'm leaving". what is he trying to say with this? Could it be that he wants to live enough to leave this place with love? or he wants to live and leave because of what he has done good to the world? those made no sense but i sometimes wonder if im living my life enough to leave it with doing something worthwhile. i recently read this quote from Margaret Fuller that says, "Men for the sake of getting a living forget to live." Do we all forget to live by trying to make a living in this world? I think we do forget to live all the time.

i know for myself that i almost every day forget to live and forget that each breath is worth something special. I worry about stupid things and even important things that wont matter in a year or so. I worry abput getting homework done, worry about exams, not failing, etc. but is it worth all the worry? Am i still going to live on? Am i going to lose my sanity from failing one exam that is worth a fourth of my grade? Sure its not good, but time goes on. Life goes on. To quote Stephen Christian in his song "Naive Orleans", he says " well i finally found that life goes on without you, and my world still turns when youre not around". The world keeps turning. Whether or not you like it, the world goes on with or without you. Its your choice to stand still, or move. Dare people to move, dare yourself to move. Dare to be a part of something important. Do not let breaths be wasted. Do not spend your life away with worry and doubts. Be the change. Go up to that girl you cant talk to. Hold doors open for people you dont know. Try to smile at people ,because most likely they will smile back. Happiness is contagious. Do something different. Be a difference. Live liek you know what you are leaving. Leave an impact. Be something special. I think i will leave it at that. . . .

Peace 'n' Love
Mike

Something new?

I have posted in awhile. been busy with lots of things with college and all that jazz. Finished my first week of college this week. It was pretty cool, but i can tell im going to go nuts once december rolls around. umm nothing too special is going on. my roommate went to a party, my friends went to a party, and im bored in my room. But whatever its cool (not in the temperature sense but im sweaty right now even though it hasnt been hot recently.) I dont know what eklse tosay. I wrote a song the other day. i like. i basically have it memorized. If anyone wants to ask me questions about what im doing/college life or any random mumbo-jumbo, im all ears and ill probably answer. so yea thats about it.

Peace 'n' Love

11:59 is more than an album

Hey everyone! i know I have posted in a long time. I probably will post a lot less because school starts in 2 weeks technically, but i move in in a week.

I was thinking about my life while talking to a friend. I was talking about things that annoy me and i came to a certain thought. I can relate to a lot of the times that Ryan Star talks about in his debut album "11:59". I also told the friend before that i have waited more than a year for this album. This album is more than just another album to me. It basically sums up what i did, what i am doing, and what i need to do. So i shall go song by song and explain it in context to myself. This is more than just another album to me.

Brand New Day- "I've stayed in one place for too long, gotta get on the run again." I've been in NJ too long i think. Ive grown tired of the things that natives here call home. i see new things but still i need to get to a new place. This place doesnt fit me that much. I've lived here for eight years but i got to get on the run again. The chorus explains what i need to do. I need a sign, i need time to slow down when i move on so i can make myself into who i want to be. i want to accomplish my dream. and with everyday a new dream and life is opened. "Lets open our eyes to the brand new day"

Right Now- This has the idea of "carpe diem" written all over it. and when i opened my senior year with this song, i sort of failed to do that up until this summer. i knew i was gonna go away out of state, so i need to make the best of whats to come. "All we ever have is here right now, I'm where i want to be" This summer ive been to 5 concerts, and played 5 shows. Ive done things that i wanted to, lived in the moment. i feel like i needed to do that, because for awhile now i know i wont be able to. there is nothing anyone can do to stop me, i need to live my life for what i want to do.

Last Train Home- This song basically made me enjoy and continue to listen to Ryan. Its just honest, and leaves me with a happy/melancholy feeling. Its for the girl of my dream, the girl that i love yet the one i dont know yet/havent met. wait for me. ill be worth it. wait me for, just believe. this song is so incredible to me, whether live, rocked up, recorded or acoustic. it means so much to me

Breathe- This is a song that meant a lot to me, then became a single. If you know me, singles become despised by me. my least favorite songs off albums become singles. But if i take a step back, and actually listen to it, its a wonderful song. I know my life is to help people, and this song basically sums up that. i want to help people breathe, and "take the world off their shoulder and put it on me"

We Might Fall- This is a mix between live in the moment/future love song. i want to watch the world around me "live and die" and just enjoy the place i am at. But also telling a love that we might fall, but well get back up and make it somehow. we may not have much, but love is all that counts.

This Could Be the Year- The title sums it up, this could be the day. I could be made or be broken this day. Live in the moment its all you have. Dont let anyone take you down

Unbreak- This song goes with "Breathe" Help people, "unbreak" them, make them have a better life, and dont take anything from it.

Start a Fire- This is just a fun song to listen to. Its my only "club"-ish song i would listen to. The chorus is fun, just an all-around fun song.

Losing Your Memory- This song really really caught onto me last night. Im leaving. Tell everyone. This is most likely the end of my life in this area/time. People need to accept it, pretend that they want it, because most likely they do, dont react, just continue living your life. Its done, its over with, "the damage is done", things could have happened bad or good, but in the end im moving on. Everyone will "lose their memory" of me. Beach is cold at winter, i wake in somewhere else, remember when i leave, this is how goodbyes are gonna be, bitter but sweet. i kinda want to stay because of friends, but i need to keep my dream inside of me alive. i need to still move on, see new areas, get known somewhere else. Wake up, its time. just remember me the days after i leave

11:59- Dont leave, this could be the best night of our lives tonight. Live in the moment. Be who you are, become your dreams. Love the people around you. im waiting for my future love to take me away, yet she holds locket and waiting for me. I need to find who i am, and live in that moment.

As 11:59 approaches, i think about what Ryan Star says. "11:59 A moment of greatness. A moment when you are exactly who and where you want to be. Whats your 11:59?" My 11:59 is music. When i make songs, people enjoy it,and get it. they can relate like i relate to Ryan's album. When i play shows, close my eyes, im singing for myself and God, with others who seem to be there. I let go, find my 11:59. These songs mean more to me than just more words and notes. They mean something, strike a chord with me. Its more than just another artist with another album. Its Ryan Star's 11:59.

Peace 'n' Love
Mike

Reflections on the dawn

I wrote this about 3 weeks ago. Hope you like it.

The break of dawn, I find it interesting. You start to see the glimmer of the sun's rays start to come out and breech the darkness. The Clouds are still dark and the stars can still be seen but for how long? It's also pretty nice to drive early in the morning. No one is on the road, no hectic traffic or annoying drivers. You start to feel at peace with yourself because it's you, your car, and the road. The road will always be there.

You wake up early, turn on the lights, and your eyes begin to hurt. And you can smell the fresh air coming in through your window to start the new day soon. You jump out of bed, get dressed, and then hit the road. The place you travel through every day feels so different all of a sudden, like new life was given to it. New life was given to yourself that morning. We die with the night then we are given new life with the dawn. Maybe I should spend more mornings like this.

The rattle of the keys, the smell of the air, and the rays finally breaking through the sky. I like the dawn. It reminds me of how every day I am given a second chance to live. And I will always be grateful for that. Maybe I should come and visit the dawn more often.

Peace 'n' Love
Mike

Well you see. . . .

I've been failing so far with my poem-a-day thing. i just like stopped. its bad. and i stopped reading a little bit every day. i feel bad. but alas, i shall start it up again! So here is a poem i wrote today so i can start up again.

Everything is going to change
I can feel it deep down
down in my soul
My heart weakens
due to this thought
My eyes will see
so many different things
Things i called to see
But maybe its not what I want
Like when they meet the Doctor
They know that things won't be the same
and they can't go back
Life is fragile
But all I say to myself is
Get ready for this
Get ready for this

Peace 'n' Love
Mike

Something new

So i decided to do something new and somewhat creative for once. Well i know at one point Jon Foreman was writing a song a day just to do it (sorta). So im not doing that. Im writing a poem a day until a certain time, then i think im going to start doing the song a day. Just to get the creative juices pumping before i go to college, and i have been lacking on the songs too.

So heres day 2 of this. I label them/name them by the day i wrote them. So this one is called "6/16/10"

"Remember that death is not the end
But only a transition" *
Oh how this is true in our lives
But how worried would I be if I knew
That this terrible thing had happened
to you oh I would tear
so much I wouldnt know what to
think about all the things
we conversed and listened to each other
about even though the seperation between us
grows at times I will still be afraid
to lose a great friend and someone to
care for you are a bright star
a star in the sky of a better place
in a place where people sing and rejoice


* Lyrics from "Fatal Tragedy" by Dream Theater

Peace 'n' love
Mike

The City

Here is a poem i wrote while looking out at New York City, New Jersey, The Statue of Liberty, and Ellis Island. It is called "the City"

Oh beautiful city
How I love thee
But, in time I will not know
If your windy brother will take over my love
For I will be closer to him
Rather than you, one day
Your lights are enticing
As much as his trains
And different style of life

For both of you still come from the same woman
That Lady Liberty I always see in the distance
To remind me of my home
(or lack there of but i dont know)
That i am proud
To be where i am
To understand so much
And to know so little about you
For my banner will always be the one
The one for which the colors are branded on me
For beauty will always be yours

Peace 'n' love
Mike