You give me hope

"You give me hope in spite of everything. You show me love even with so much pain. so i will take this life and live like i was given another try"

I am listening to that song over and over. at first i really didnt like it. after a couple of listens, it is awesome. Its not like "rock-your-face-off" awesome, more like God awesome. Have you ever heard of anyone calling God awesome? well its one of those awesomes.

I love Between the Trees (the band that made that song ^ ^) and Ryan Kirkland (the singer and guitarist of BTT). They just seem like amazing people who are good hearted. They want to help people, and do help people with their music. I wish i could do that. i wish i was like my heroes. Jon Foreman, Switchfoot, Stephen Christian, Anberlin, Matt MacDonald, The Classic Crime, Bryce Avary/The Rocket Summer, i know there are alot more that i am forgetting right now. they write good songs, and they have good music to it. and me just a 17 (almost 18) year old kid who has an acoustic, electric guitar, bass, and piano who makes crappy songs that dont mean anything to anyone and most of them havent heard outside the four walls i play them in. I show people my lyrics, but they are just lyrics. they arent lyrics with music with my bad voice. I really want to know peoples reactions to my songs when i play the songs for them. does it really make them think? does it connect with their life? does it make sense at all?

I wish i was like my heroes. They mean so much to me. I want to be that person for some people. I want to be that good hearted person that some teen looks up to. i want to be an inspiration.

But maybe God has bigger plans for me. Maybe He wants me to do something different and still help people and be an inspiration. But i still have hope to be a musician.

"You give me hope in spite of everything. You show me love even with so much pain. So i will take this life and live like i was given another try, given another try"

arent we given another try all the time?